I was sitting with a P3W leader
and she offered me a hot drink. I was
about to answer “It’s ok, I don’t need anything.” But I paused and reminded myself I’m in
Indonesia, not Canada. I answered “yes,
I will take coffee.” My impulse is to
say no when I’m offered something because I don’t like taking from others. I’ve realized this value may come from my
culture. When my mom offers our guests
coffee, they answer something like “only if you’re already making a pot.” To be a good guest is to make sure you’re not
taking too much from your host.
If I tried to practice Canadian
manners in Indonesia, it would be rude (which I’ve probably done multiple
times). Hosts are happy when guests eagerly accept all that they are
offered. Sometimes the host simply gives
visitors a drink or food without asking.
I have never once heard a guest tell their host to only give them a
drink/food if it’s already prepared. On
Christmas day neighbours and friends visit each other and everyone prepares
snacks. When some neighbours came over
and didn’t eat the snacks, my host mom was insulted. It is rude to refuse food when visiting
someone’s home. It is the greatest
compliment to the host when a guest eats a lot at your house. It communicates that the host is a good cook
and the host feels that they have something valuable to offer. When a guest refuses to eat, it communicates
that what they prepared isn’t good enough for the guest. Clearly, the paradigm of polite and rude
behaviour is far different in Canada than Indonesia.
What are the root values that
make the Canadian and the Indonesian way of hospitality so different? The insightful Henri Nouwen writes that in
Western culture we often think happiness comes from having (expensive goods/status/knowledge). Maybe Canadians are sometimes hesitant to
accept things from others because we believe people are happier when they save
things/energy for themselves rather than giving. I catch myself thinking this way. When my friend offers me food I believe the
polite thing to do is to say no because if I ate it, there would be less for
her. This is mine and that is yours;
I’ll accept presents on my birthday, but otherwise I don’t want to take your
stuff – your happiness – away from you.
The more I refuse to accept your
hospitality is the more earnestly I’m pushing you away (perhaps subconsciously)
from my belongings, my time, and my private life. I’m not just talking about tangible items;
I’m also referring to the commodity of time.
How often at the end of a phone call have you said “Well, I’m sure
you’re busy, I’ll let you get back to it.”
We bump into a friend on the street and only wave or say a quick
greeting because we don’t want to bother them.
We’re at a friend’s house and say “It’s getting late, I should let you
get to sleep.” When really what we mean is I want to sleep. By signaling to people that we protect their
valuable time, we are saying: my time is just as valuable and if you want to
interrupt my busy life at least make an appointment.
Politely refusing to take other’s
belongings/time/energy indicates how much Canadians value independence and
privacy. I can take care of myself; I
don’t need anything from you and please don’t ask too much from me. I am busy improving my work, my family, my
property and no one can get in my way.
Of course this is saying it too harshly, but I’m embarrassed that it
holds some truth to how I think.
My independent spirit has been
greatly challenged in Indonesia. After
realizing that my manners are rude, I started doing things differently. Now, I willingly accept food from people. I stop to chat with people (in the office, on
the street) without worrying that I’m wasting their time and my time. I am less hesitant to ask for help, even from
acquaintances and strangers. I focus
less on personal progress and instead live in the moment. These changes are often uncomfortable and I
sometimes worry that my life is stagnant.
I’m not increasing my academic knowledge; I’m not earning money; I’m not
improving artistically; I’m simply living.
This year in Indonesia made me
realize it’s not easy to re-learn the cultural values I’ve internalized such as
independence, self-sufficiency, and progress. But the steps I’ve taken to
receive graciously inspire me to be a more generous person. People say the more you give the more you
will receive. But, I think the more
profound truth is that the more you become a gracious receiver, the easier it
is to give.
Why does giving even matter in a culture that is obsessed with
having? Being generous isn’t always
comfortable and often feels like a loss of control. But, there is something bigger lost when we
avoid the vulnerability of giving and receiving. Without this web of accepting gifts of
time/help/hospitality and giving, we suffer from a sense of loneliness and
isolation. Henri Nouwen says happiness
does not come from having, but from giving.
The best days I’ve had in Indonesia are the days that someone has shared
something with me or when I’ve been able to give something to others. I hope that when I return to Canada I will
not allow the busyness of life to stop me from living out what I learned about
hospitality and community in Indonesia.
It sounds like your introvertness is going to fade lol
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